Sunday, January 24, 2016

Day 24. A Lesson That You Learn A Hard Way

A Lesson That I Learn The Hard Way

Read day 11? :v

Saturday, January 23, 2016

Day 23. A Letter To Someone, Anyone

Dear Cerberus,

I couldn’t think of anyone else to write to except you. Ever since you called me your little kitty, maybe it was just yesterday, I just couldn’t get you out of my mind. Isn’t it like something is wrong with me again? I just can’t get my own self to function properly these days.

I’ve been dying for a long break. Truth to be told, I was nearly at my limit working and studying too much. Remember two days in a row when I taught 6 hours per day? I was already at my limit. It felt like I could collapse somehow at any point. Above all, I was under depressed cause my five-year relationship had ended. It was predictable and unavoidable. I tried my best to be strong like always so that other people didn’t have to worry much about me. It was like putting another mask onto my face.

I was broken inside out and somehow you managed to gather all those pieces back. I don’t understand, Cerberus. We only got along for a week and it felt like we had already known each other for years. Why were you here anyway, Cerberus? Why not in the past, why now? Why now, when I was at the lowest of my emotions?

I’m lost, Cerberus. I don’t know where I am, who I am or what I want to do. It’s like I could hold on to any hands that are trying to save me. Isn’t it like using anyone? I can’t help it. I’m sad, broken and selfish for now. I couldn’t figure out my weakness, my imperfections and even my mistakes that led to this ending. Cerberus, why are you even here?

You know that I could use you. When a person feels helpless or when she’s at the lowest point of her emotions, it’s a natural thing for her to hurt other people. I could use you as a tool to get over my break up. I could use you as a tool to be my puppet so that I could manipulate you to satisfy my own feelings. I could hurt you more than anyone could ever do. I could lose my mind and destroy the world that I was trying to fit in. And most importantly, I could break your heart…

Cerberus, it’s dangerous to get to know me better cause now, I am such a mess. Even when I have the courage to get myself together, I could still be dangerous. Why are you risking your life right now? Don’t you think that you might just waste your time getting to know me? I am mentally broken. Sooner or later, I would try to pull you away and hurt you. Just like what I am doing right now…

What’s the point of keeping me by your side? I might now be the one who you thought I would be. Maybe all the kindness, the caring and all the sharing that you see right now, are all nothing but lies? Even I myself cannot guarantee that. No matter how much I tried to pull you away, you still chose to stay. Somehow, I’m having such illusions that you might have fallen for me. I just don’t know what’s real and what’s not right now.

My heart aches today. It’s not my brain that went crazy but instead, my heart. I can’t read the signs. But listen, Cerberus. Even the special feelings that I have felt these days, I couldn’t distinguish between illusion and reality. You’re taking too many risks at once, Cerberus. Aren’t you afraid of falling? Cause it would hurt when you hit the ground…

Friday, January 22, 2016

Day 22. Put Your Music On Shuffle And Post 10 Songs

10 Random Songs that I’ve been listening to these days

1.    Poets of The Fall – Love Will Come To You
2.    Poets of The Fall – Carnival of Rust
3.    Poets of The Fall – Cradle in Love
4.    Mindy Gledhill – Anchor
5.    Mindy Gledhill – Feather in The Wind
6.    Mindy Gledhill – All About Your Heart
7.    Mindy Gledhill – Hourglass
8.    Anatasia – Once Upon A December
9.    Haley Reinhart – Can’t Help Falling In Love

10.  Nicki Minaj ft. Skylar Grey – Bed Of Lies

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Day 20. 3 Celebrities Crushes

3 Celebrities Crushes
1.    Corbin Bleu
2.    Chloe Grace Moretz

3.    Dove Cameron

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Day 19. Discuss Your First Love

Discuss My First Love

Really? Like, seriously? It’s a funny thing how sometimes life wants to mess up with you to spice things up a little bit.

I’ll go quick on my five-year relationship cause I don’t seem to be able to make my relationship look good anymore. It’s not my fault though. It’s all about destiny. Sometimes, life could be really funny.

I met him when I was in high school. He had to repeat a year cause he spent too much time playing computer games. I’m not saying that it was the bad thing. As I retold so many times about it, it suddenly became a joke anyway. We were in a relationship for almost five years, actually it was 4 years and 9 months.

We broke up 3 days before Christmas. He was the one who broke up with me. Since he was the one who broke up with me, it seemed impossible to find out an explainable reason. For almost a month after we broke up, I kept thinking to myself: “There must be something wrong about me that broke us up.” How silly I am.

Today, I left work early cause there was no class in the afternoon. On my way home, I couldn’t believe that I would run into my ex. He was walking hands in hands with a girl.

What can I discuss about my first love now? Great timing, huh? Can’t believe what just happened. It’s not even been a month yet since our break up. Still two more days to go.

There I was, feeling like an idiot. I was being cheated on for God’s know how long. He’s not a liar though. He never lies to me. I can guarantee that. He never lies to me. He just tends to hide the truth. If I don’t ask him about the truth, he would keep it hidden. Still, not really a liar though.

I really don’t want to turn him into some kind of enemy. I tried my best to be friends with him cause it would be idiotic for us to be enemies. However, since I found out this way, I don’t think that he would deserve it any more. It’s a bad day for him to get caught up like that and now he’s on my mean post. Life is fair at some points.

I’ve been questioning myself for the past couple weeks. I really wanted to believe that it was something about me that chased people off. I wanted to take all the blames. Somehow, life doesn’t want me to take it that way. Thanks! That helps. It means quite a lot to me. Things start to make much more sense now.

I feel so disappointed. I was being cheated on by a guy who was just a driver without any college degree. It’s so humiliated… 

Monday, January 18, 2016

Day 18. 30 Facts About Yourself

30 Facts About Myself

I remembered writing about 50 random facts about myself a very long time ago. Well, there’re only 30 for today. Let’s make this quick since I still have so many things to do.

1.    I’m an introvert.
2.    I love sushi and udon.
3.    #teamxbox
4.    I’m a matchaholic.
5.    I love white chocolate and dark chocolate.
6.    I’m a morning person.
7.    I enjoy reading fairytales.
8.    I love Beatrix Potter.
9.    I don’t mind wearing combat boots.
10. I always want to go back to Hoi An City.
11. I wear mostly black, grey, navy and soft pink.
12. I don’t wear white since it didn’t suit me.
13. I can cook a full proper family meal.
14. I do enjoy being neat.
15. I would love to have a puppy.
16. I’m interested in both genders.
17. I have a yin yang twin.
18. I have a sweet tooth.
19. I’m quite a shopaholic.
20. I’m pretty good at money management.
21. Making plans is what I’m very good at.
22. I’m a bookworm.
23. I’m 1m55.
24. I tell jokes too often.
25. I can be very romantic at some points.
26. I’m a bilingual.
27. I’m a nerd. Not so many people realize that.
28. I believe that I must be Mrs. Right first instead of just trying to find my prince charming.
29. I can’t live without dairy products.

30. I tend to use emoticons a lot. 

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Day 17. Your Zodiac Sign And Whether It Fits You

My Zodiac Sign And Whether It Fits Me

Well, kind of.

I’m a Sagittarius. I was born on December 18th, so I was very close to Capricorn. As someone who is half human and half animal, I believe that my sign fits me quite well than I expected.

It is said that a Sagittarius loves traveling which is obviously a normal fact for me. I love traveling too as long as I have time for it. I’ve been to quite a few places around my country and I do enjoy going far away from home. Don’t get me wrong here. I do love staying at my lovely home. It’s just so excited to have a chance to leave it for some times and come back.

A Sagittarius with its bow and arrows often messes around with relationships. As I always believe that I must be a Mrs. Right myself first, rather than finding prince charming. There are guys falling for me just because. I have never tried archery before so maybe it could be explained. I attract a few wrong punks. That could be my fault. I never intend to do that anyway. It’s just, a lot of girls nowadays are so useless, you know? They are so proud of not knowing how to cook a proper meal and do housework. Their arrows could reach their targets. Instead, mine reached.

And that’s all I know about my sign =))))))))))))))))))))))))

Seriously, I don’t even read about it that much. This is what I made up in the most logical way that possible. Astrology was never on my list. I prefer astronomy though. 

Saturday, January 16, 2016

Day 16. Things That You Miss

Things That I Miss

I miss the cold, gloomy mornings before spring comes. Although I’m 100% a morning person, I prefer those cloudy and rainy mornings to those sunny ones. I wouldn’t be lying in bed just because the weather is not so bright outside. I love sitting at my desk with a hot cup of whatever drink I find tasty, looking at the raindrops on my glass window.

I miss the days when I have absolute nothing social-related stuffs to think about. I would just get myself comfortable and cozy in a woolen sweater and a pair of fuzzy socks. I would spend my time staying in my own little room where I could read all my books over and over again without getting tired of. These are the days when I find myself 16 again.

I miss playing pretend as if I were still a little child. I would love to be a little princess going on her own magical adventures, searching for her prince charming on a white horse with a bouquet of lavenders on his hands. Why would any princesses sit back and wait for her prince? What if she were not even destined to marry a prince? What if on her own adventures, she found herself falling head over heels for the king of devil? Anything could happen in the least expected ways.

I miss the summer holidays hanging with my friends on the rooftop. We would have a BBQ party until very late at night. There would be a tent, a children pool, blankets and pillows,… everything needed for an all girl party on the rooftop. We would grill whatever edible we could afford, except for lobsters cause I’m allergic. We would drink iced tea and sing songs. Then we would all lie down and quietly observe the beautiful starry night.

I miss dressing up and feeling beautiful. As I spend most of my time staying at home, I don’t have too many chances to actually dress up a little bit. I have a gorgeous wardrobe full of different styles of clothing. My make up collection has expanded ever since my sister started her cosmetic business. I own so many beautiful shoes which fit me perfectly cause I have really nice feet.

I miss going on vacation with my dear friends. We would explore the whole city together without getting tired. Even if there were only two of us, I would just appreciate all the wonderful times we had been through together. We would all sit back and make plans and decide where or what to eat and drink and where to visit, to buy souvenirs and what to wear or bring along,… There are sure so many things to do.

I’m getting very close to start back all the things I’ve been missing. Winter is coming really soon. I believe so. 

Friday, January 15, 2016

Day 15. Bullet-Point Your Whole Day

Bullet-Point My Whole Day

1.   Get up early
2.   Do Yoga
3.   Have a healthy breakfast
4.   Go to work
5.   Lunch break
6.   Last shift
7.   Go to Auntie’s home
8.   Drop by the gas station
9.   Have dinner with Auntie
10.               Drive Auntie to work
11.               Chat with friends through messenger
12.               Drive Auntie home
13.               Go home
14.               Take a relaxing bath
15.               Spend time with the computer
16.               Exercise
17.               Doze off

It’s been a very long day… *passed out* 

Thursday, January 14, 2016

Day 14. Favourite Movies That You Never Get Tired Of Watching

Favorite Movies That I Never Get Tired Of Watching

1.    My Neighbor Totoro
2.    High School Musical
3.    Ponyo On The Cliff
4.    Bunny Drop
5.    Marry Poppins

I have just realized that I was kind of into Japanese movies. Well, I think I have always been looking for some movies that are kind of slow and peaceful. Okay I grow up with High School Musical so let’s just make an exception here. There are lots of memories from watching all those singing and dancing scenes from a trilogy started 10 years ago.

Ghibli Studio’s movies are very unique and special. My most favorite is the Totoro’s story. The whole plot was different from other kinds of movies I would expect. I’ve been obsessed with many Ghibli’s movies. Ponyo on the cliff is my favorite one of an Asian little mermaid story. The main characters in most Ghibli’s movies are children. I love children.

I love Bunny Drop because of the two main characters. Little Ashida Mana is the girl from Marumo No Okite. She danced the song Maru Maru Mori Mori. The guy in the movie, he’s also the main character in Norwegian Woods. He is so handsome and lovely in his own way. I think he’s my male celebrity crush.

have always loved Mary Poppins ever since I saw it on Disney. Julia Andrew and all her songs from Mary Poppins have always been in my head. Whenever I heard those songs, I still can see clearly the scenes from the movies where they would all be very happy. I read the book too. Somehow, I lost the book. I really want to buy another copy, but this time, it should be the original English one. 

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Day 13. What Are You Excited About

What Am I Excited About

I am excited about cute little weird things. Mostly, I would go crazy all about fashion. I don’t mind carrying weird stuffs. You know my stuffed raccoon bag! That’s what I’m talking about.

Beside fashion, I am excited about being fed. Although I have selective eating disorder, I do enjoy eating what I like. Lately, I’ve been obsessed with Udon – Japanese/Korean style noodle. I have always loved eating Japanese food and Vietnamese food. I don’t really enjoy Western Cuisine cause after all, I’m still an Asian.

Pets. I’m excited about having a pet. It’s like starting new family with a whole new special member. I have to admit that I was afraid of animals ever since I was young. Last year, I had a chance to befriend with a puppy. That was when I learn to communicate with them. I do afraid of birds though. I’m getting along very well with cats and dogs.

I think that I’m excited about going shopping. Well, it’s explainable though. I’m a real girl, so I do enjoy shopping as one of my hobbies. I save money to buy something that would make me happy. Mostly, something new for my wardrobe. I have just reorganize my wardrobe this week. The good news is, although I’ve been buying quite a lot of stuffs for Tet Holidays, I don’t have to get rid of anything. Normally, there would be a bunch of new and never-worn-once stuffs which later I would have to sell them all. Today, I only have some very old stuffs to throw away. Nothing left to go to my online shop.

I’m not quite in the mood to write today. I’ve been playing video games a lot today. I just needed those things. Maybe I’ve been thinking too much. I lost my inspirations which I hope would be temporary. Still, I have another day waiting for me ahead. 

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

Day 12. 5 Blessings In Your Life

5 Blessings In My Life

I’m a blessed child. I was born into a happy family. I went to different schools and I made friends with such amazing people. So, this is going to be a long post. Here are my top 5 blessings in my life so far:

1.    My family (blood-related)

I live with my parents. I don’t intend to move out although I do love to live on my own. It’s just the feeling of guilty when I’m not here, in my parents’ house, to be with my parents. I don’t want them to live a lonely life cause they stop talking to each other for a long time now. They don’t get along very well and instead of fighting, they choose to keep quiet. Although the three of us live together under the same roof, we still have our own lives. I still have half a year to go with my college degree and I work part-time at a vocational school. My mom retired years ago. Every day, she takes care of her own little garden and using Facebook. Papa does the same Facebook thing. He still works with his jewelry business kind of thing. Still, we live together. I’m glad that I still have a home.

2.    My twin and my muses

I met my yin yang twin at the age of 10. We were classmates and we got very close in the 7th grade. We have been friends for more than ten years already. It’s getting kind of creepy ever since cause we tend to read each other’s mind. Sometimes, it feels like there was some kind of invisible connections between us which are so hard to put down in words. We do look alike somehow. Our styles and our ways of thinking have always been synchronized.

Every artist has her own muse. Her muse is her inspiration to follow the path she has chosen. Without her muse, every work of art would be missing its soul. My first and long-term muse is my best friend, Moo. I have fallen for her charm and beauty. She’s the inspiration for every work of art I’ve made. I love taking photos of her and eventually, I love writing stories inspired by her.

Emerald is my second favorite muse. She was my high school classmate and ever since we graduated, I haven’t seen her for years now. The last time I talked to her, she was in Da Nang city, studying to become a dentist, I think. When I first met her, I was charmed by her innocent look. I spent the whole summer taking many photos of her with different concepts.
Then, Hee was my third muse. I met her on my freshmen year. She was the tallest of my muses and her body was so skinny. She’s different from other muses as well as normal people. But still, she is my inspiration. She worked for me as a model for my shops along with my twin.  

3.    My Majcen Family

In September 2015, I left my old job and started working at Majcen Vocational School. I worked here as an English Teacher. Never had I thought that I would find my second family here. I was so depressed at that time from different stuffs. Truth to be told, I was at my limit going back to self-harm. I couldn’t face my own problems anymore and sometimes, I had to leave behind my responsibilities cause I was helpless.

Majcen was a different workplace for me. All the students and teachers there was totally different from what I considered “school”. It’s like a much better version of college where everyone is a member of a bigger family. The students at Majcen come from different family background and different parts of our country. There is no wall nor distance between us. They are the most magical medicine to cure my mental illness. In October 2015, I was back on my own feet again. It was like coming back from the death. I have never felt so calm in my life working at Majcen Vocational School with my beloved students and teachers.

4.    Miss Nhung

Mostly, when I think back about all my teachers, I still can see the painful memories. I didn’t enjoy schooling that much cause, well, both my teachers and my friends were not that nice to me. I don’t do tough love, okay? Tough love leaves nothing but pains on me. However, miss Nhung is different.

Miss Nhung is my first English teacher. I went to Duong Minh Language School at the age of 10. She was the first teacher who taught me the beauty of the English language. I was inspired by her method of teaching, her kindness and most of all, her unconditional love for her students. You would never feel the same way I feel when you knew nothing about a new foreign language and there you go, she would be your first teacher. She was more than just a teacher. She taught you with all her heart. She believed in you, in your ability to grow. 

Until now, I still remember all the nursery rhythms and songs and stories and life experiences that she taught. I don’t know what would I do without her. I’m so blessed to have her in my life.

5.    My unique self

I know that I have always been and I will always be different. It took me years to finally learn to accept myself the way I am. I never want nor I never choose to be different. I was born this way. Some people like me cause I’m different. Other like me because some parts of me are still normal. You know what, I don’t give a damn. It took forever for me to learn to love myself. I appreciate the fact that many people do love me for who I really am. Those are people who tend to stay in my life. I couldn’t ask for more. 

Monday, January 11, 2016

Day 11. Things You Always Think [What If] About

Things I Always Think [What If] About

There are certain things that didn’t happen the things it was supposed to be. Sometimes, I still have the thought of changing it somehow. What if I could turn it around? Would it change anything or would it rather stay the same?

On top of that, one of the things that had always been on my mind is that what if I didn’t write that letter? I know that this one is supposed to lie in the past and there would ever be any reason to talk about it again.

Back in grade 10, my homeroom teacher taught physics. I was never good at physics nor math nor chemistry. In fact, I sucked. I never intended to be good at something that was clearly not meant for me to be good at my whole life. I didn’t go to her classes after school because why anyway? As a teacher, you should have taught in class everything you were supposed to rather than turning it into some kind of money-making business called “after school classes”. I never intended to take her class. My grade wasn’t good because she didn’t taught me how to do those exercise in class. People might choose not to believe this but if you were in my shoes, you would have felt the same way I felt - how horrible it was to sit in a class where everyone was supposed to study the same thing, but no, it was far too different.

One day, she got too upset cause we, her students, were getting bad grades. She thought that it must be her fault somehow. I thanked God a thousand times cause at least, she knew that there was something wrong about her teaching. However, she was too blind to see the truth hidden behind her wealth. She asked the whole class to write her a letter, telling her our thoughts, our own opinions so that she would know what was wrong with her, mostly, with her class.

Back then, I was such an arrogant kid. I was fifteen at that time. I thought to myself that it was in fact a good chance to let her know the truth. Therefore, I wrote her a letter with all the ugly truth she should have seen a long time ago. She was quite shocked to read that although she pretended that she was fine. Well, she was definitely not. She did try to hide it pretty well provided the fact that she pretended not to know who wrote that letter.

A few weeks later, she noticed that my grade in literature had dropped. I was not good at literature either because Vietnamese literature (I’m talking about how the subject was taught) was fucking stupid. Even now, I’m still a better literature student than most of my high school acquaintances. I got a five at that time. She used my grade against me. She didn’t say my name out loud but she mentioned how I was so good at writing such a letter to my homeroom teacher but instead got a five on my literature test.

I was frozen. I didn’t know how I should react. I did have the thought of crashing her bike on the way home. Instead, I chose to keep quiet. I was already leaning toward being a loner, an introvert at that time. It soon became my own path. To think back about high school, still, sometimes there are nightmares. High school was a tough time for me, a lifelong lesson that I had to learn at such a young age. A lesson that changes who I am supposed to be is too painful. It haunts me often when I feel stressed. It scares me every time I dream about going back to school. I was so thankful to wake up in bed and try to calm myself for one thing “High school has ended, a long time ago.”

What if I didn’t write that letter?

Though I have to admit that writing that letter is the biggest mistake I made, how would my life change the other way? I wouldn’t become an introvert. I might have made some friends, or even a lot of friends. High school might be a precious memory like everybody’s else. I would choose a different path to go in my life. I might have been to a different college, study a different major and meet someone different. I don’t know.

I love how my life turns out to be. The reason that I still have the thought of “what if” is because I was haunted by my past. High school has always been a nightmare. Somehow, I just want to change it a little bit so that I don’t have to wake up in the middle of the night, crying alone cause I thought that I was going back to high school.

Sunday, January 10, 2016

Day 10. Things For Which You Feel Strongly

Things For Which I Feel Strongly

I am a little obsessed over little things. I can get very emotional when it comes to things that I like. To be honest, never have I been sitting at my desk to start thinking about things that I feel strongly for.

Green tea powder is one of my favorite things. I prefer the Japanese Matcha to Thai Matcha because the quality is far too different. It’s true that we can get a pack of Thai Matcha for haft a price compare to a pack of Japanese Matcha. However, I really don’t like the fact that Thai Matcha will eventually change its color after mixing. I still can’t forget my green tea cookies started to turn into dark brown color after baking while it was supposed to be the bright green color. I don’t gain any trust over Thai Matcha over time and although I couldn’t afford the Japanese one, I still prefer it.

I get obsessed over almost everything that is made from green tea powder. Matcha beverages such as latte, ice blended, milk… are my usual orders whenever I have a drink. Matcha pastries such as roll cake, tiramisu, choux cream, bread,… are on my list. Then come all other Matcha beauty products such as facial cleanser, shower gel,… I got them all. Matcha is love. Matcha is life.

Besides green tea, chocolate is also my obsession. Although I don’t go too crazy about chocolate and white chocolate is technically “not-real-chocolate”, I still put chocolate on the list here. I love white chocolate. Its flavor is not so strong and it goes perfectly with green tea powder. White chocolate is also cheaper. I could drink or eat white chocolate without getting tired of it. I also like raw dark chocolate. Its unique flavor is what I like the most. Somehow, I don’t like milk chocolate, It doesn’t taste like chocolate at all.

Those are like my top two, and since we’re talking about the “top-things”, I think it’s much better to have the third stage. I would say that lavender is a thing for me. Ever since I was a little child, I had fallen in love with the color called lavender. Later on, I discovered that it was in fact a type of flower. I still remember asking my mom to buy me some lavender seeds so that I could make my own little garden. I was so disappointed to find out that lavender cannot be grown in our country. As I grow up, I tend to find things that lavender-related such as massage cream, shower gel, oil…

A few years ago, there was a trend going on in the whole country. People started to buy lavender, especially the dried one cause it made such beautiful decoration. It was too expensive and to be honest, I still prefer observing its beauty through photos of lavender fields in France. I am not the type of person who follows the trend though, mostly because I don’t have money.

Saturday, January 9, 2016

Day 9. Words Of Wisdom That Speak To You

Words Of Wisdom That Speak To Me

"Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts. Homework goes in the trash. Mobile phones are being used in class. Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka. Bikes become cars. Kisses turn into sex. Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground? When protection meant wearing a helmet? When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties? Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and mum was your hero? Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were about who ran the fastest. War was only a card game. And the only drug you knew was cough medicine. When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a slut. The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow? And we couldn’t wait to grow up" – Anonymous

Friday, January 8, 2016

Day 8. Something You Struggle With

Something That I Struggle With

Getting ready for a new relationship is what I’ve been struggling with lately. After my first love ended, I found myself in such unstable condition.

I didn’t really know the real reason why we broke up. I kept thinking that it was because of me. Something about me is wrong. I must have had some problems that guys found them annoying. Maybe it was because I spend too much time talking about the future of starting a family and having kids. Maybe it was because I didn’t get along too well with other people’s friends. Maybe it could be that I was not into sports of all kind. Maybe my imperfections did matter.

Whenever I think about meeting other people, I start to think about all imperfections. I kept telling myself that there must be something wrong about me. What is the actually point of having a relationship to me? I don’t know yet. I couldn’t answer such questions like that.

Time heals. At least that’s what I truly believe. It’s not the right time right now to think about having a relationship. I know that I was not getting used to being alone for the past 5 years. Sometimes, I got nightmares and all the feelings of lonely would come around me. I wasn’t even in such a hurry looking for a new relationship cause my wound had not been healed yet. I might have met the right person, but then again, I was too early. I have always been early my whole life. It’s not really good timing though.

I have time now to really focus on me, myself. What do I see when I look at myself? My flaws? My imperfections? My bad habits and characteristics? My eating disorder? I don’t know. I’m still in the middle of looking for something positive. I want to find a way to really embrace myself and accept who I really am one more time.

It hurts when I realize that I was too early once again… 

Thursday, January 7, 2016

Day 7. 10 Songs That You Are Loving Right Now

10 Songs That I Am Loving Right Now

Although I have not been listening to many new songs lately, I do enjoy sticking to my old playlist. I listen to both English and Japanese songs. No, I do not really enjoy listening to Vietnamese songs. Feel free to judge… I do not care.

1.    Haley Reinhart - Can’t Help Falling In Love

2.    Ikimono Gakari – Blue Bird

3.    Wang Lee Hom – Yi Ran Ai Ni

4.    Nolwenn Leroy – Lullaby (Song Of The Sea)

5.    Joy Enriquez – How Can I Not Love You

6.    Ellie Goulding – Take Me To Church

7.    Idina Menzel ft. Michael Bublé – Baby It’s Cold Outside

8.    Troye Sivan – Fools

9.     Vanessa Hudgens ft. Zac Efron – The Start Of Something New

10.  Dawin ft. Silentó – Dessert

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